Drifting and fading

My importance will drift and I will be left alone with the person i hate the most; myself. How am I suppose to go on without anything concrete to reach for. I am different and a challenge that noone wants to take and I can only pretend to be fine for so long before I can't handle it anymore. I am already being phased out of this world. There will be nothing left for me and I can't keep grasping at fake hopes, unrealistic dreams and thin air. I need to get ready to go.