death

why do people have to die.
why do loved ones have to leave us.
I lost someone today.
At 92 a person who was like a grandmother to me my whole life passed away in her sleep.
Im pushed over the edge and I can't stop crying.
I  can barley see the screen as I type this.
I want to go be with her  I want to die to.
I wish I could have died instead.
people who have so much wanting to live seem to die - she was the spunkiest old british lady I new.
I have nothing more to type.